This last Saturday was my girls’ second birthday. That morning, I was reflecting on the day they were born. Two years ago at that moment, I was sleeping in my car in a Target parking lot, waiting to take our birth mom to the hospital (long story…) This was the day that our girls burst on the scene, very much in keeping with being beyond our every expectation, and our lives were never the same.
That day was a blur in so many ways, a whirlwind of emotions and fears, anticipations and uncertainties. Every bit of it was beyond my control, and I felt like I was just along for the ride. I had an inner calm that knew everything would turn out ok, a release that comes from knowing you have zero control anyway, so there’s no use in trying to make anything happen.
Dear ones, the way you came into our lives made us fight and grow. It stretched us so far beyond our abilities, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Even before you were born, your existence changed us at the core, drawing us deeper into ourselves and into the places where God was waiting to shape us into who we would need to be as people and parents.
Now you are two years old, growing into these tiny human people with larger-than-life personalities. You STILL stretch me and cause me to grow, and I’m leaning into God my Father as I learn how to be a parent to you both.
Addy, you are strong and fierce, full of life and light. You feel things deeply…I can SO relate to that. You are a leader and you’re blazing your own trail, even now. I love how affectionate you are, how you give kisses to me and your dad and your sister, how you pat me on the back as you give me a hug. You are hysterically funny, and you make me laugh constantly. You, my dear, are going to be a force to be reckoned with, and I am watching in expectation for the amazing life you will create.
Lissy, you are sweet and tender, but you are not timid. I love seeing you dance at the slightest hint of music, how you don’t walk, but bounce lightly on your tiptoes everywhere you go. You have THE most contagious laugh, and you love to have fun and play. You love to snuggle, but you’re also perfectly content to play on your own for a while. You are sensitive and I suspect you have an artist’s soul. I love your curiosity, how you ask, “What’s that?” and “Where’d it go?” about EVERYTHING. You are beautiful inside and out, and your heart will lead you to a beautiful life.
I am so grateful God chose me to be your mother. More than anything, being a mom has shown me the depth of my need for God’s strength and wisdom, and my prayer is that everything I do as a parent will point you to Jesus. You are more than I could ever have dreamed or imagined, and I love you both. Happy birthday, sweet girls.